third thought.

okay i know that this is the third post within like...i dont kno....maybe 15 mins or something.

but i cant stop thinking.

my mind is forever on the move.

and i have at least 2 cups of gin in me.



but.


to think that i made it this far...in spite of all the negative people that have told me that "i'm a waste of time" or "that i'm not college material"...is something to be proud of.

and i am.

never did i think that the people that i'm supposed to look up to for support , were going to be the people that tell me that...in short...i'm worthless, that i'm not going to amount to anything but minimum wage and less than that.

they dubbed me a failure from the jump.

i was on program lists ever since i was in kindergarden. and to find out that i was secretly on these lists is complete and utter bullshit.

how does education - something that should be free (of currency and/or prejudice) - become politcal?

its disgusting and vile.

and i dispise it.

with a passion.

but nevertheless...i'm in college.

over half way done...but still a long ways to go.



so i ask this to the "mentors" in my past?

how will you feel when a failure like me...ends up better than you'll ever be?