5+1=new thought.

i wish blogspot had that "what you are currently listening to" option...cause this song is hitting me like crazy.

Everyday Struggle by The Notorious B.I.G.

in this song he says

"Baby on the way mad bills to pay
That's why you drink Tanqueray
So you can reminisce and wish
You wasn't living so devilish s-shit"

this verse hits me sooo hard.


i cant even describe. well i can. but its unbelievable how Biggie says everything that i'm; in a sense; going through.

i mean i didnt actually get a girl pregnant...so help me God if i did that...but the words "baby on the way" for me could mean a one of my female friends seeing me soon, then theres "mad bills to pay" - im in college...nuff said - and then he talks about gin and how you get drunk to reminisce about times that weren't tough at all.

i couldn't beli.....sorry....i can't believe it.

but anyways...

i'm feeling quite heavy hearted and depressed.

school is depressing. not because everyone is leaving. its because some people make it hard to leave.

and its amazing how some people can become so close in such a short amount of time. i honestly don't know how to explain it. sometimes its fate or a blessing.

or maybe this is bad.

i cant tell.

but we had a discussion about when we go home.

and honestly i know when the time/ environment/ aura is right...i'm gunna feel it.

me missing them. and its not going to be nice. not by a long shot.


hopefully that doesnt happen. hopefully my mind is totally occupied this winter break.

with new memories and renewed happiness.


with that said....i wish everyone a happy holidays.

and if i don't see you dec. 31st...cheers bitches!

lol.

The La is Outtie.